Grandparents

I don't think I've thanked my sister yet for giving up her spot in the delivery room so Ned's mom could be there to witness her first grandchild being born. I was so tired I don't think I really noticed it until she came rushing in after the doctor said it was okay for them to come inside. My sister, Sheilah, is my best friend and I just couldn't picture her not being by my side at something so important but she knew there's be at least one more chance to be there in the delivery room and allowed Grandma Debbie to be there. Sheilah said she felt like she was there anyway. I guess I was so focused on pushing that I didn't realize that Sheilah was right outside yelling and cheering me on.

Grandma Debbie has stage 4 ovarian cancer, but has been doing well after her surgery and now she'll be going on 4 treatments of chemo so I pray she'll make it through. She is a strong lady I feel positive she will and with Kingston being her medicine she will be fine. She was so helpful when I was pregnant. She prepared meals, bought many maternity stuff for me and bought a lot of baby items in preparation for Kingston's arrival. She wanted me not to stress too much because I had 5 classes fall quarter and 4 classes winter quarter, with a load like that plus working, she didn't want me to feel overwhelmed especially since I was a first time mom.

I've never had anyone very close to me be sick and I honestly don't know how to act. I know how I feel about it and I keep that even to myself. I feel guilty for not being more involved, I feel like I should be visiting her more or offering whatever I could to make her feel comfortable. Instead I just find myself talking and acting normal' like nothings happened. The only thing I've done is pray and pray and keep positive. Someone told me its fine what I'm doing because not everyone is comfortable with cancer, and to just deal with it the way I need to. Right now praying and staying positive is all I can come up with to do. I hope its enough.

Ned grew up without knowing any of his grandparents so I know he's beyond happy that his mom is doing well and getting to know her grandson. I grew up knowing both my grandmothers and feel so blessed and also happy that Kingston still has a chance to get to know both sets of grandparents. Lucky kid!!!

Dang my mom is leaving Monday for the Philippines, I'm going to miss her. Not just because she's been helpful to me but I haven't lived with her for 14 years and having her here at the house just makes it really feel like home to me. My parents are selling their house so when they visit they'll be staying with me and Ned at our house. They even have their own room and my mom has decorated it the way she would if it was her own house and that makes me feel so good. I get them all to myself, sorry to my brothers and sister. I wasn't going to bring it up but I'm a bit upset that my dad still hasn't come back from the Philippines to meet Kingston, but I do realize that he's dealing with business and the plantations so I'm not too bitter. He will be here in June for my graduation, well at least that's the plan, so just a bit more waiting.

It's been since September 2007 since I've seen my dad. The picture was on Father's Day.

Shots

Before and After so different

My baby boy got his 2 month shots (3) yesterday. He had interrupted sleep. This is the first time I heard him give the scream of death, my heart breaking every time he did it. After his short nap he had a feeding and then a 4 hour sleep, waking as the child I know and love. Curious and wide eyed. Thank goodness.

I stuck to him like glue today, wanted him to know if I could take it away I would. I think it worked because he responded to my sympathetic face, I got a few smiles from him.

Another pain I'd like to take away would be his constipation. He finally had a dirty diaper this morning after 5 days of struggling with pushes. Its normal for infants, but man it looks like a pain in the ass, haha. I'm always happy to change his dirty diaper since he has very few.

Well its 5 days til mom goes to the Philippines for 10 weeks. My mom has been a HUGE HELP with Kingston. I got lots of study time and lots of rest. Now my last quarter before graduation and she's leaving. AAAWWW. But my sister is big help too so I should still have time for all the things I was doing last quarter. I don't have much of a social life since my focus has been all about school and now Kingston, so I'm not too worried. Its already a fact that my blood pressure is more normal when I'm doing something. Summer and winter breaks when all I was doing was working and staying at home doing nothing my blood pressure spiked up. When I went back to work with at least 4 classes and working it went to normal. My blood pressure was also normal when I was pregnant, when usually it spikes up. I know the science of my body is weird.

Today Kingston and I will be doing nothing I hate to take him out when its cold outside. But we do need to get grocery, so maybe a trip to Ranch99 is on the schedule to, maybe.

Cousins & Kids

I know finally I'm blogging again. This is my 2nd blogger but I'm not importing my other blogs to this account. I want this strictly a "family" account. No politics, no school, no work, no personal issues and topics, unless it has something to do with family. Rated G!!! Can't believe I'm bloggin at 4:30am. Kingston is up an hour earlier then usual. Oh no better not get use to this little boy, I start school next week. Dang school talk. Sorry.

That's Josiah in the video. He is absolutely adorable and very funny. Josiah's mother is my 22 years-old cousin Nicole. So weird to see my little cousin with a baby boy since it seems like it was just yesterday she was a a little baby herself. Her twin sister, Bridget and her, use to watch their favorite cartoon, "The Little Mermaid", every time we were at their house. It actually became my favorite cartoon.

I'm amazed at how time flies, I'm learning to enjoy to the fullest though, because it really is precious. Going to my older cousin, Elaine, son's twin boys birthday party totally made me realize that. Their all growing up so quickly. I'm happy Kingston will have lots of boy cousins to grow up with. I couldn't have asked for such awesome cousins to grow up with and now my son will be growing up with some of my cousins kids, brings tears to my eyes. Hurry up Sheilah, Raquel, Leia, Jennie, Jeremi, Bridget, Anthony, Ariel, Derek, and on and on, I have lots of cousins here in the US, you get the picture, haha. NO PRESSURE to any of my cousins 30+. Dang can't believe I went there =P.